yup... Vent here...

so Like i said in My last post, guys in Otawa Are PSYCHO...

okay, so I wasn't even going out with this guy... We went on a few dates.. when we were together, It was fine, but When we weren't, every Minute woudl be him askng to see me agian, he asked If 10 this morning was okay.. I said I di know, so he Asked what about 11.. I said I didn't know, so again, he asked how about 12.... When I say i don't know to the first time, It means i don't know.. I'm sick in bed right now, and he been for the last week or so... so I said it depended on how i was feeling, he asked if 1 ish was okay....

so I said I don't know, We'll wait to see til the time comes...
I was suppose to see him tonight and tomorrow night or whatever, but he asked me if he was too much for me... so, I was going to tell him person, But He Asked e, so I didn't want to avoid the question or lie, so I told him he was... that I don't think we shoudl date, That i think we shodl just be friends....

Again, we weren't even ing out at this point, Just been on a few dates...
but because IJust wanted to be friends, he wants me to dig a grave and die..

WELL, at first, I Felt bad for telling him, for hurting him, but because He was being oh so VERY mature about it, I'm glad I dn't Actually make it official to go out with him... He Actually made it VERY easy for me to Not feel bad anymore.. I mean, Instead of dealing, and Accepting the fact that I didn't think we were right for each other, he decided that I completely ruined his life, and that i should dig a grave and die, and that i shoudl go fuck myself....

So it Made It VERY clear That he is deifnitely not the one I Want to be with, And I did Want to be his friend, but He Made me realize that i didn't want anything to do with him, because of how Much of a prick he was about it.. So Thank for for helping meot Feel bad about not wanting to see you anymore.. you made it So Much easier for me when you Told me to go fuck myself and such..

so anyways, yeah, guys around here are psycho..(p.s. I hung out with The guy 3 times, And he Was already saying how much he missed me And how he wanted to be with me.... )... He was saying how much he missed me after the first night we spent together... I mean, Thanks, that's sweet and all, but You got attached WAY too fast... so It's your own fault.. I told him the first day i met him that I di fall for people so Fast, And that it took me lots of time.... and well, I just didn fall for you the way you were falling for me, so that is all about that..

hopefully I Don't lose my friend that I Met BEFORE this guy, who I found out that they were friends... If so... that's going to be 3 friends I Lose in less than a week... Damn, I'm doing good..

first friend was not so much that i los him as a friend... Or maybe I did, i don't know... but becuase I Was hanging out with someone he didn't agree with, then Obviously I'm taking sides, ANd I don't think he's too plased about that!..

BULLSHIT... I don't take sides... And I try to avoid drama.. so because i try to avoid unnecesarry drama, I don't think our friendship wil work out...
I'm sorry you like the drama so Much, but you know what... You have NO right to tell me who I Can And Cannot hang out with... you have NO right to tell wht what I Can And Cannot do.... 3. You have NO right telling me What I should or Shoudln't think.... And 4. Who the fuck are you to say what you think I'm thinking, when you have no fucking clue what i think of you.... And Maybe I do Stick up for you, And you don't knwo it... Maybe I do stick up for the other guy, and you don't know it...

you know what,I don't stick for either of you. Deal with your fucking problems...

I'm sure there are many people out there who are thinking the same thing about e "Deal with your Fucking problems"... Well, I'm dealing the best Way I know how that I'm comfortable with.... Wether I'm fucked up for the rest f my life, I don't know... I know I have many problems.. I know I bottle them up... I know half the peoplet there think I should see a psychiatrist.. Maybe I should... Will I.. Fuck No!...do i think they will help me?... fuck no.. I think They will make whatever problem i have 10 times worse...

anyways, I woudl vent more, but the meds are kicking in, and I'm about to pass out...
Damnit, I'm almost out of T-3s....

goodnight all!

P.S. stas... Happy birthday a few days late!... this is the one Happy Moment of this post!

the end!